FEAR

am in fear now!!

i remembered how i keep ask R to send me picture
for almost 2 months i asked for that and he never send me
first reason he gave me is his camera is at his sister house which is 2 hours from his place
1 month passed and no news about that
i often get annoyed and furious and remind him about that
time flies and he somehow get his cam back
am excited
but he never send!!
he told me he forgotten and often had no time to upload into his pc!
and keep telling me he will send them to me soon!!
well, there is times i got annoyed and remind him again and again till i got enough of that!!!
and even accused him of lying
=P

yesterday
i told him to send me his picture
he said oh yeah
then replied "damn camera"
in my mind, i was thinking, he must be lying again, finding excuses
he told me that he need to find replacement batteries for his cam in order to upload those picture
i replied short
ok i said
20 minutes passed, he told me he got a call from his friend
he need to talk to him because his friend is so sad now, broke up
chat me later he said
half an hour passed
he said chat me tonight =.=
i asked him to prove to me he's not lying if he online tonight

and yeah!!
he did
and sent me his picture too
i didn't know until he asked me
i don't bother to see first
but after awhile i did

(i'll cut everything short)

and i'm in fear now!!
i just don't know how to say
not about the picture
picture is normal
just somethings wrong with me!!

BAH!!

forget bout it
i'll do fine!!
=))